i should be happy.

but yet,



i'm not.


































why?


yes, you guys have seen me laughing loads of times..
i'm known as the "joyful" one.

but,
i feel so..
hurt, green-eyed, embarrased, mad..

why?



i asked myself a million times,
why? did i even asked for it?
yes, maybe sometimes.

but.. seriously,
sometimes..
i really wish that it will go away..
get out of my fucking face.
get out of my fucking life.
i hate you.




now,
i'll i ask myself again..























why do i even bother?